A Carers Story

A partner’s perspective on lymphoma
and other “stuff”

Hamish and MicheleBeing
the wife of a lymphoma patient, I have been asked to write a few words on being
a “carer”. This has given me cause to think about what that term means.

seems to me such a strange word to align with a marriage of 46 years. “Partner”
or “team player” seems so much more appropriate terms, even if our roles are
quite different. I am therefore writing this from the perspective of a “partner”,
rather than a “carer”. I make this distinction, as it has been important to my
husband and I that we face his current health challenge mindfully, as a team,
as we have dealt with most things so far in our married life.

my husband (Hamish) was diagnosed with mantle cell lymphoma (MCL) late last year, we were, of course,
shocked. He was a fit and healthy 70 year-old who lived an active, busy
lifestyle with absolutely no time for getting sick. The reality of the
seriousness of the diagnosis hit us pretty firmly and disbelief was probably
our overriding emotion for the first couple of months.

knew absolutely nothing about lymphoma so, encouraged by some friends who had
been through cancer treatment themselves, “Team Us” set about educating
ourselves as best we could. This is still an ongoing process. The more we read,
the more questions come to light and our medical professionals at Peter Mac have
generously taken the time to explain to both of us the ins and outs of my
husband’s changing circumstances. Treatments have been planned then amended
then replanned and are now under way.

together means that we can help each other to comprehend the mass of new
information about his disease and its possible treatments. It allows us to turn
this process into something of a research project which will hopefully have a
good outcome if we work through it to the best of our ability.

would also like to say something about positivity and “stuff”.

of the lymphoma help brochures and websites that we have read talk about the
importance of keeping a “positive attitude”. They don’t really tell you how to
do that especially if you keep on getting challenging news.

the years, the way in which my husband and I have always tried to deal with the
less enjoyable aspects of life has been to think of them as “just stuff”.

can be put into a mental pigeon hole to be sorted out along with the
electricity bill, home repairs and dental work.

can be put aside to be managed at the next convenient moment or, if it is
urgent, it can be tackled and worked through. It doesn’t have to have centre
stage at all times in our collective consciousness.

decided to think about my husband’s lymphoma treatment as “just stuff”. We try
to make it a project to be dealt with.

really helps us to manage the inevitable emotional stress that accompanies
cancer as it gives us permission to put it all down for a while. To think about
other things and to get periods of life back to some sort of normality with as
much engagement in our normal life activities as we can manage.

It also
helps us to feel a little empowered if we can play a part in working towards
the best possible outcome for the treatment.

try hard to organise our life as a project. We shop for and cook healthy meals, play golf, walk, swim, go to the
gym, play with our grandchildren and spend time with our family and friends.
Sometimes circumstances require that our regime has to be modified but we do
whatever we can. This is a positive regime that we can control and which has for us both physical and emotional

Of course, we both have moments when something
happens to put focus on the lymphoma but dealing with it, talking about it and
thinking about it as “stuff”, not life,
makes it much less of a load.

challenge to “staying positive” is what I call the “health system machine”.

receiving a diagnosis of cancer, most of us are quickly sucked into the, very
necessary, health system machine. This is an overwhelming, alien environment of
medical specialists, appointment rooms and procedures which have the capacity
to extract your identity and leave you feeling somewhat dehumanised and without
any control of your life. Our way to “stay positive” in the face of this
onslaught has been to try to stay in control the bits of our life that we can influence. It has really helped us to
feel that we can play our co-operative part with the medical team by
understanding as much as we can of the health machine process, and by making
lifestyle choices to maintain my husband’s best possible health and fitness. By
taking control of these choices we also reaffirm the positive role we can play
as team members actively contributing to my husband’s well-being.

final issue I would like to comment on, with which we have had to deal as part
of this whole journey, is that of communication.

have also chosen to be very open about my husband’s disease and the progress of
his treatment. We share information with our friends and family and this seems
to make them all a part of our “team” somehow. Their support and encouragement
really helps when we are running low on energy.

husband writes regular informative bulletins on his progress which he emails
and posts on facebook to friends and family. This saves us from the emotional
depletion that we can sometimes feel if we have to reiterate over and over to
individual well-wishers the current update of news – especially if it’s not so

It is
also perhaps a bit therapeutic to be able to set it all down in a considered
manner on his computer. This is another way of packaging it in such a way that it
can be set aside for a while.

believe that, whilst we are not lucky that my husband developed this nasty
disease, we are certainly very lucky to live in a time and place with such
wonderful care options. As I write this, the wonder drugs, the medical staff
and facilities at Peter Mac have combined to result in my husband’s current
remission. There are still challenges ahead but we are also miraculously lucky
to have the support of loving family and friends around us. These are all the
real “carers”. They give us the magic gift of hope.

Michele, a cancer patient’s partner

If you are a carer or patient and would like to talk to a Lymphoma Care Nurse, please phone 1800 953 081.


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